Flavor
Early of 2015, I got incident where the senior that I was like since in high school starting from the year of 2007 no more alive. I heard that he got a tumor in his head. Not sure either tumor or lung cancer since we have lost contact after he continues further studies. I was depressing the first time I know he was no longer here. We know about each other feeling but never express it. The main things that I never had approached myself to say that I like him. But, at the same time, I am feeling glad, it never happens. I have my own principle that I tightly cling where the right one will come when he is into me. Remembering about the first time, I saw him and everything like meet and go for movies with friends and so on. Just a few times. Yeah, the stuff that good teenagers do; kinda a nerdy and naive person. Never hang out just for two of us. Remain as a friend zone is the way I like he treat me. No shy and am not afraid to say that.
But, since I am going to taste 22 carats gold end of this 2016, I will try harder to not cover up how does it make me feel like. Living this life would be good if I know the where the paths going in. Perhaps. However, I want it to be great at the end after I confronted 99 tests from Him before the 100th came (death).
I'd have and got friends from most of each and every sides of living, attitude and most importantly that they are not two faced people. That is how I like being around with them even though they were not able to be alike to others suitcase. At this young 21 airy-fairy, I am no longer to care for those who came and go. My avidity is for those who stay concern and don't go until death came. And, maybe that is why I got so many characteristics that I was never able to stick it on for too long before. Yet, it keeps changing and I feel alive more often when I'd been able to realize my own self. Am still modifying the lacking of me and find my true dear self. A year is gone now. But, he still there in my memories. Alfatihah for the late Mohammad Asyraf Tamin and all Muslims.
Yea, I guess this is it. Whenever liking something, it can't be shameless right, for liking it for a long time like too into. Zzrrr! I do not know how to said it properly. The right words seem don't come that easily to me right now. Mmm.
But, since I am going to taste 22 carats gold end of this 2016, I will try harder to not cover up how does it make me feel like. Living this life would be good if I know the where the paths going in. Perhaps. However, I want it to be great at the end after I confronted 99 tests from Him before the 100th came (death).
I'd have and got friends from most of each and every sides of living, attitude and most importantly that they are not two faced people. That is how I like being around with them even though they were not able to be alike to others suitcase. At this young 21 airy-fairy, I am no longer to care for those who came and go. My avidity is for those who stay concern and don't go until death came. And, maybe that is why I got so many characteristics that I was never able to stick it on for too long before. Yet, it keeps changing and I feel alive more often when I'd been able to realize my own self. Am still modifying the lacking of me and find my true dear self. A year is gone now. But, he still there in my memories. Alfatihah for the late Mohammad Asyraf Tamin and all Muslims.
Yea, I guess this is it. Whenever liking something, it can't be shameless right, for liking it for a long time like too into. Zzrrr! I do not know how to said it properly. The right words seem don't come that easily to me right now. Mmm.
Oh man, why do I feel this way? How can I have this weird wild plants flourish feeling towards you, man? Why do I feel that both of he and you got it on the high place? Am I going to face that melancholy again? Or will it be sunny up my sunflower? I am so great if I know what will happen in future truly. Emotions are like unpredictable to underestimate. It's been annoying me for years but I like it, like damn. Why do I felt it that way and this way, and another that and this way too?
Hard to say, hard to paint.
Why does it have to be stuck in the brain when the heart is not capable to beats on usual.
Hoping that I could understand and know what is it about.
Sometimes, soliloquy could mistreat too.
It takes a high definition of courage for me to move myself to show love. It can be things, knowledge, animals, others and absolutely the people that I love most.
I'm feeling like having a homemade milkshake of my partner egoistic and my own stubbornest. What could the taste be like? Whoever you are, be nice and we will get well together.
wonder how will my partner hectic and that kind of 'bunga-bunga kumbang' life be like. And, how people get involve in every different road and ride it all away. Even, mine is strenuous, arduous and challenging too.
It did not slow me down.
Please, get me up there.
Being adroit is part of me to done for my beloved ones knowing I am not a genius.
To get rid of unhandy on me sometimes can be so complex as I aware there has a part of a klutz in me. Being honest is a simple way but they seem not like it. Depressed by feeling the self-operate of them.
Who cares? Who knew?
The flavor of life.
Let's try to drive this world perfectly calm and taste the aroma of vivacious that we get.
wonder how will my partner hectic and that kind of 'bunga-bunga kumbang' life be like. And, how people get involve in every different road and ride it all away. Even, mine is strenuous, arduous and challenging too.
It did not slow me down.
Please, get me up there.
Being adroit is part of me to done for my beloved ones knowing I am not a genius.
To get rid of unhandy on me sometimes can be so complex as I aware there has a part of a klutz in me. Being honest is a simple way but they seem not like it. Depressed by feeling the self-operate of them.
Who cares? Who knew?
The flavor of life.
Let's try to drive this world perfectly calm and taste the aroma of vivacious that we get.
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